for what it’s worth, I can tell you the daily workings of an artist must follow the same patterns as researchers in academia. I can make myself feel very unproductive and useless if I spend the day in the studio without producing x chef d’oeuvres. Never mind that I’ve spent the day circling around ideas and paintings, reading, absorbing, letting stuff simmer through. No, no, no it must be actual brush touching canvas to count, says the internal critic (the same voice that in exhibits always points out the relative ages of artists–as in “look, Picasso was only 25 when he painted les demoiselles d’avignon, and what do you have to show ?”)