The thing is, it’s not that I don’t want to go back to teaching. I’m fairly well prepared for my classes, and I think they’re going to be a lot of fun this semester.

It’s that I don’t want to go back to my administrative life. And so I’m resisting the start of those tasks, which are already piling up. The byproduct is that I’m also resisting a number of research-related tasks (writing a CFP; putting together the paperwork on a conference panel; writing an abstract) that feel too administrative to me.

There’s something in my head that is pretending, with utter conviction, that by god it is June, and I don’t have to do any of that if I don’t wanna.

Here’s hoping that admitting my state of denial is the first step toward actually getting some of this nonsense done.

One response to “Denial”

  1. Amen to that! And it is still true in August.

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